Home vs. College

Its been just about a month since I've moved away from home. I have been loving college life so much but probably only left campus 10 times?

  Just thinking about how every day life goes back home I would be out in town running my little errands, I would be watching my little brother play football in the afternoon and spending time with my Family and occasional friends at night. Sharing stories about our day and having some good home cooked meals every now and then. Having a room to your self and a bathroom next to my room. A place to feel rest after a long day. The peace and love of a home.

  Now thinking about every day college life its different but the same in ways.  I go to class everyday running little errands every now and then on my bicycle or walking. I Watch my friends play in their intramural Soccer and dodge ball games.. I go rock climbing with friends with the occasional basketball game every now and then. At night time we all spend it pretty much together hopping from one room to another seeing whats going on there. Making fun of each other or helping out with homework or problems. A big change of having a room mate and sharing everything being a good and bad thing at the same time. Along with a community bathroom on the other side of the hall. The dorms are always filled with laughter and people coming in and out.

Home and college are similar but there really is really No Place Like Home....

Confident

So I've really realized this past year that I am not confident

It's a big problem I do not know why I am not 

I guess I'm afraid of what people might think

Maybe I'm just a scardy cat? Maybe I just let things go to quickly
Maybe I'm just to easy and let things happen when i should stand up for it.

I really wish there was some way to take me out of this hole.

I've been doing lots of things that inquire that I be confident in myself

from choirs to marketing to even just talking in class or talking to a BIG group of audience.

It has helped me but since I've been doing this I feel I've lost the
confident in the people who has been with me on the way.

I've made a challenge to myself where I
want them to have confident in me again.

If I need to sing in a uncomfortable place I'm going to do it. 

If I have to talk in front of a big audience
or class I just need to study up and do it .

I need to learn to stand up for what I think and not just
go along with what who ever says

I challenge myself and I really don't want to fail.

SNOW

So today it decided it would start snowing again....
I love the snow but you know when you have a car full of your best friend and his family,
I slid right into a curb and if i would have went any faster it would have been worse... THANK GOD IT WASN'T

We drove back to there house and my dad came and drove us home.
Now im at my house with my best friend and his brother and sister,
Having me some chicken noodle soup and watching Eclipse.
Started out as a bad day and Got better as it went on...

Just another day in my Life ;p

One of those days

One of those days
I just wonder
I just think
I just watch

It's one of those days where I wonder if
I should have said one thing sooner,
If things would be different,
If I just wasn't around,
If I changed

It's one of those days where I just think if...
I said the wrong thing,
If I grew up different,
If I back off,
If I looked and acted different

It's one of those days where I just watch
You leave and screw with me later,
life just go by me
What happens when im not around
People be so judgmental....

But life goes on even if your
Confused
Alone
Happy
Excited
In love
or not
Left out


I guess that's just the way it goes.....